Abusing the abused

It has been a LONG time since I have the time, space and mental energy to be able to write.  It’s the thing that I have to keep myself on a level and the first thing to indicate if my head is not in a very good place.  Once it’s established that one of these […]

Enter Sandman – the beginning

Every now and then you come across one of those people that you know is going to be a part of your life forever.  Given, it’s not always the most positive thing in the world but there’s something special about knowing that a connection will exist with someone forever, no matter how many gaps of […]

Everybody changes

We’re all guilty of waking up one day and realising that the thing you have done every day, no longer seems the right thing to do.  It can be anything: something minuscule, something gigantor, something physical, something emotional or something mental.  Either way, it just suddenly feels wrong.  We all know that we change but […]

The insecurity trap

I’ve just been speaking with someone I met years ago while I was between marriages;  We text pretty much daily, actually.  He’s in a full time relationship now and I’m obviously married so the dynamics of our discussions are slightly different than the were when we knew each other before.  We were always very open […]

Unattainable dreams and aspirations

From the youngest age, in fact I don’t remember a time when this wasn’t the case, my one and only real dream was to be a mother.  I think my own mother was so into babies and other people’s children that my natural empathy with her would have always made it so that it would […]

Mistakes to be learned from

For a long time, I spent my life completely controlled by another person.  Invariably, this control was entirely abused and became an exercise of power/intimidation.  It’s amazing how gradual an abuse of power is undertaken and the effect that it eventually leaves.  Interestingly, you never really realise you are the great invisible force until something […]