The search for Sperm

I’m asking for a friend.  No really, it is a friend that this whole post is in relation to.  I long since accepted that my dream of babies was never going to happen and I have always been oddly comfortable with that.  It’s strange that even the strongest ambition you can have from the youngest […]

Abusing the abused

It has been a LONG time since I have the time, space and mental energy to be able to write.  It’s the thing that I have to keep myself on a level and the first thing to indicate if my head is not in a very good place.  Once it’s established that one of these […]

The fear of change

There appear to be 2 different types of personalities: people who embrace change and others who fear it.  I pretty consistently fall into the latter category.  I’m a creature of habit that likes to have things as predictable as physically possible.  Being able to read people helps me with that but there will always be […]

Immorality at its finest

This entry has sat in my draft folder for quite some time.  It was a subject that I found quite difficult to write about as it made me quite emotional while I was writing it.  The subject matter is something that I would like documented to look back on in the future but also something […]

Prioritising the little things

The little things have always been the most important in my world.  Those smiles that make your heart melt, those words that come out of nowhere and mean everything, that laugh that creeps up on you unexpectedly and those people who effortlessly make the bad things go away.  We are all surrounded by the positive […]

The sandwich filler

I saw a quote on my facebook wall yesterday and immediately shared it, on the poignancy of the sentiment made: “Beginnings are usually scary and endings are usually sad, but it’s the middle that counts.” – Sandra Bullock To be honest, it did kinda take me aback that it was a quote from my Dad’s […]

Instinct versus logic

I know I need to write, to get some of these feelings out, but I’m not entirely sure where these ramblings are going to take me today.  Lying here, listening to my favourite Walt Disney World online radio station (srsounds.com – if you love Disney then you’ll love this station!), I realise how sad I […]

Seeing through fresh eyes

It’s amazing the things you notice when something happens in your life to make you rethink everything.  I’ve worked with children, in some capacity or other, for over half of my life and only now that it looks like I’m walking away from it for a while am I realising things that I never quite […]

Unattainable dreams and aspirations

From the youngest age, in fact I don’t remember a time when this wasn’t the case, my one and only real dream was to be a mother.  I think my own mother was so into babies and other people’s children that my natural empathy with her would have always made it so that it would […]